Gaslighting

 

Told you exactly how it hurt but it never made a difference
I'm always seeking attention and making my problems bigger- that's how you see it
Promised to always be there but you're the first
to leave when shit comes crashing down
You ask me to speak up, I bare my all and you
leave me hanging.

How the fuck do we even argue about my own
feelings ????
Supposed to look right through me but you
seem to look past me
Told you exactly how I got done and you done did
the same shit
Telling me I feel way too much because you just
dont feel enough

I let you see me naked and hell even counted the scars with you
You stroke my heart with them words and next
minute you flipping
I let you get inside my skin , live rent free in my
mental
Always tell me I'm too deep, you'd rather rent
the physical

Pretty hurts- now I know , you say them eyes
always get you
Try to make you see past the lure, the sexiness
is laced in them words
There's more to me than just the freak, but guess
you ain't got time for that one
It's always better when they see you with me than
you actually dealing with me

My voice is muffled up from all that shouting and
crying -im tired
It's like I'm hitting a wall, them words bounce back
all the time
I see you in every drink, I see you in every nigga, I
see you in every bender
All that "sexy talk" got my tummy turning because
I know how that story ends .

I know I'm not crazy - it will take a lot for you to
get that
Thats just a shit load of time I ain't ready to give
you, because someone else already got it .

Xxx.