You can be with someone but have a hard time trying to imagine a future with them, you can focus all your energy on it but it is never clear. I always imagine what the feeling will be like with you because the picture is so vivid and real. Opening your eyes everyday and you are sleeping next to the love of your life. Starting each day with a smile on your face knowing you will be waking up to that face and beautiful soul forever .
Being a part of someone is bigger than the physical, it's more mental and emotional balance, understanding. Knowing how to handle each other and accepting one another with all the flaws because when love is present it paints imperfection as beauty because deep down what makes us different most times is usually the special parts of us. You push each other to become better individuals for yourself and for each other. I believe if you truly love someone, seeing them reach their full potential should give you greater joy as it makes them able to love you even better. The love fills you up, mends the broken and see through spaces in your spirit and makes you feel whole. If it is real and present, healthy even it should bring you happiness most of the time if not all the time.
Getting to know you is like eating a layered cake, every tier is a different flavour but equally delicious . I want to be selfless with you and live in our own little world, a safe haven, a private island where both of us are just safe and happy with one another . You make me want more of you with each passing day . The way you allow no space for doubts with me by telling me exactly how you feel is how I never leave you assuming too because I'm vocal about my feelings to leave no room for questions. I had been around love but I had never been here before and now that I'm here I'm not leaving .
You were not my first love, not the first to tell me how beautiful you think I am but you became the love that erased all the other loves before you. You erased everything and tore away all the pictures so we could start with a clean canvas to paint afresh . You touched my soul before you even touched my body, picking up pieces that you never broke but you didn't mind because you want me whole, at my best - for me. Broke down all the walls with one conversation, pried me open so easily and had the juices flowing out of me with no fight. You bring out the softness in me that surprises me sometimes because it comes with feelings I had never felt before.
You give me things I never realised I needed and you get my thoughts even in silence .
Hearing you tell me that you wanna celebrate me pushes me into that positive circle that I sometimes struggle to find. I've been learning how to love you from loving myself wholly because how you love yourself is how you teach others to love you. I'm usually really anxious about the future but lately I've been taking it in a day at a time because I get to experience new things with you every single day and it gives me time to breathe and relax . I thank the ancestors for you and for getting a chance to do this life thing with you. At this point all I know is I want this feeling and vibe to grow, cultivate so much love that we can give to everyone that comes across our paths. I will forever be thankful because you held a light out to me in the midst of my darkness and I know you don't realise it but you saved me.
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