Love and other drugs

  Breathing in and out is what living is huh- literally I mean, but its harder than simple inhalation and exhalation. Living is a struggle when you cant laugh and love out loud. I mean I can laugh right, I do that all the time but when I'm alone that sound will never escape my lips if it's you in my mental . I started understanding the word trigger when I experienced you, the whole package - took me about 3 years if I'm counting the in between silences as well. It's like I know you, I know your name and all that but I dont know you. I've always been the one to get the lil coloured and cute versions of you and from the jump that was never what I wanted but just had to take it because a part of me was just desperate to belong to someone or be a part of something beautiful but then again that was just a black white sketch I only saw in high definition. It feels too good to be real , too scary to be on this same planet with everyone else because the intensity of ...

  There are certain vibes or energy that we can never get back no matter how hard we try to recover from situations. Once certain lines are crossed there is no going back . It takes more than just action to move away from people or situations, it requires shifting your entire head space and redirecting it to the bigger picture which is mostly the reason why you are leaving or breaking away in the first place .  Being stuck in a place where you no longer belong actually messes you up more than you know, the mental drain and the physical even - just feeling like you wanna bum all the time and then wake up and everything is different but it wont change until you decide to actually do something about it . The worst is when you actually know you are settling and you deserve the world served on a silver platter but the fear that grips you when you think of the future is what holds you back more than anything. I've been stuck in this zone for as long as I can remember and I u...

 Feeling is inevitable, the most we can do is try and block it and ignore but like darkness even the purest of souls are drawn to it. Going through any form of mental imbalance makes the dynamics of a relationship a tad bit different if not difficult .  Embracing imperfections personally makes it easier for any other person trying to be about you understand you and how you act and react in different situations. Whenever you're touched by love a heart print lingers so you are always reminded of a feeling of being cared for. The line however that separates love and hate is a thin ass veil that is hella transparent.  When you're in love you can picture how much hatred can result from the love if it turns sour.   There are individuals that keep us opening and closing  that veil depending on how good they treat you and if they make you feel special enough for as long as it lasts. Why we get drawn to souls that constantly put us through the most is a mystery I'm ...