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Live. Laugh. Love

 


Breathing in and out is what living is huh- literally I mean, but its harder than simple inhalation and exhalation. Living is a struggle when you cant laugh and love out loud. I mean I can laugh right, I do that all the time but when I'm alone that sound will never escape my lips if it's you in my mental .

I started understanding the word trigger when I experienced you, the whole package - took me about 3 years if I'm counting the in between silences as well. It's like I know you, I know your name and all that but I dont know you. I've always been the one to get the lil coloured and cute versions of you and from the jump that was never what I wanted but just had to take it because a part of me was just desperate to belong to someone or be a part of something beautiful but then again that was just a black white sketch I only saw in high definition.

It feels too good to be real , too scary to be on this same planet with everyone else because the intensity of everything that comes with us is strong enough to blast anything off the face of this world.
I have days when I tell myself that I'm letting myself down and I can do this- without you , whatever this is but then again you've never been one to take no for an answer.

I've tried in every way possible to erase you from my dark corners- hell I even painted my red door pink and shit but I know the real colour when I look at it. There are things deep within me that even I still dont get and I wouldn't even want to try get at this point but they make me smile .

You've awakened a passion in me that burns deep... I touch my chest and I feel the heat and it reminds me who put it there. You've hurt me as much as you've made me smile and its unimaginable that I could still say I love you but I do. Never been one to be soft on them emotions but here we ain't do that right , it's all love and light plus the bullshit and God knows how much that makes me wanna rip your head off but I dont think I could if I wanted to because my heart wouldn't let me.

You bring out the best in me and I love and hate how the worst makes my creative juices flow when all I really want is to just live laugh and love.
Xxx

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  1. Unknown29 October 2020 at 08:48

    I Love.. I Relate❤️

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    1. QueenVee29 October 2020 at 08:51

      Means a lot to me that I'm writing what so many of us feel ❤

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