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The problem is when you're a beautiful soul you always see the good in everyone but not everyone is like you. We see the potential in everything, even the darkest of souls glow so bright in our eyes because they could if they tapped into it but they choose not to - and this is the exact part that easily flies over our heads .

We are always picking up shards of glass for other people to put them back together and it's those same pieces that cut us deep and the reason we get cut almost always never sticks around to hand a tissue for your cut or even ask if you're okay .

I personally think that the "gut" was specifically created for people like us - who are ready to see beauty in anything and running with it. The gut never gets distracted by smiles and 2 minute goodies because it deals with pure energy and so what you see is what you get.

If I'm being honest sometimes I really wish I didnt feel as much maybe I wouldn't be bothered by the slightest of things. The idea of a hopeless romantic looks and feels hella cute if you're watching a romcom not if its you. Lately I've lost count of how many nights I've had to hold my mouth, crying my heart out over shit I cant even explain but all I feel is the bleeding heart.

One question I constantly ask myself is will I really ever be happy- like properly fulfilled and satisfied . I wish to be,no lie if you ask me I know the exact picture to paint if I'm asked what it would look like but the problem is WHERE, WHEN, WITH WHO ?

Everyone who walks into your life has a part to play, if they are not the one giving then they are taking - the more that scenario repeats itself the less you have left for yourself and that stable foundation you had shakes a little bit and doubt steals the show. All I crave at this point is to know love and for it to know me too. To feel it the same way I easily give it away and freely, for once to be the one who is being taken care of without worrying about the timeline and how long the feeling will last .

Moments like these make me wish I could just switch it all off and not have to deal with th b.s.

 I can safely say at this point IM TIRED!!!!! 

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