Love and other drugs

  These are the type of people that make people wish trailers were available for people too so you know what's coming your way. The confusion of emotion usually makes one not know the look of exactly what they're looking for . If we all knew what love or safety looked like we would have never fallen in the wrong arms. Most times the rough idea is there but the events that lead to a decision making scenario determine the outcome. Everyone is capable of love but not everyone has love to give, some hurt people because they were hurt too so they never knew how to love. Some people are just toxic and are not even sorry about it and it is with such people that you should be careful. People who want things for the sake of having them, no intention to keep and nurture but every intent to use. These type of people will suck you dry and still make excuses for their actions, they will tear you to shreds but always remember they can break you but can never end you. They know all they ...

  Not everyone you encounter in your life is supposed to stay , in the present or future even. I believe after someone fulfills their purpose- be it a lesson or whatever they are meant to leave but some stay. We usually get distracted (myself included) by trying to figure out why someone left, ignoring whatever else it is they brought into your life for a reason. I recently got to experience something amazing as a result of everything else that happened in the past - the heartbreaks,betrayal and loss. It made me appreciate "real time " things and bask in the feeling of beautiful moments. His sole purpose in my life is making me feel. Most , if not all the things he says or does invokes feelings within me and its intense the fuck. Being a person good with words it sounds funny when I say I can't explain something . I can only explain how I feel it like not why and how in depth. I've come across different people and of course a lot of interaction comes with ...

  Breathing in and out is what living is huh- literally I mean, but its harder than simple inhalation and exhalation. Living is a struggle when you cant laugh and love out loud. I mean I can laugh right, I do that all the time but when I'm alone that sound will never escape my lips if it's you in my mental . I started understanding the word trigger when I experienced you, the whole package - took me about 3 years if I'm counting the in between silences as well. It's like I know you, I know your name and all that but I dont know you. I've always been the one to get the lil coloured and cute versions of you and from the jump that was never what I wanted but just had to take it because a part of me was just desperate to belong to someone or be a part of something beautiful but then again that was just a black white sketch I only saw in high definition. It feels too good to be real , too scary to be on this same planet with everyone else because the intensity of ...

  There are certain vibes or energy that we can never get back no matter how hard we try to recover from situations. Once certain lines are crossed there is no going back . It takes more than just action to move away from people or situations, it requires shifting your entire head space and redirecting it to the bigger picture which is mostly the reason why you are leaving or breaking away in the first place .  Being stuck in a place where you no longer belong actually messes you up more than you know, the mental drain and the physical even - just feeling like you wanna bum all the time and then wake up and everything is different but it wont change until you decide to actually do something about it . The worst is when you actually know you are settling and you deserve the world served on a silver platter but the fear that grips you when you think of the future is what holds you back more than anything. I've been stuck in this zone for as long as I can remember and I u...

 Feeling is inevitable, the most we can do is try and block it and ignore but like darkness even the purest of souls are drawn to it. Going through any form of mental imbalance makes the dynamics of a relationship a tad bit different if not difficult .  Embracing imperfections personally makes it easier for any other person trying to be about you understand you and how you act and react in different situations. Whenever you're touched by love a heart print lingers so you are always reminded of a feeling of being cared for. The line however that separates love and hate is a thin ass veil that is hella transparent.  When you're in love you can picture how much hatred can result from the love if it turns sour.   There are individuals that keep us opening and closing  that veil depending on how good they treat you and if they make you feel special enough for as long as it lasts. Why we get drawn to souls that constantly put us through the most is a mystery I'm ...

You can be with someone but have a hard time trying to imagine a future with them, you can focus all your energy on it but it is never clear.  I always imagine what the feeling will be like with you because the picture  is so vivid and real. Opening your eyes everyday and you are sleeping next to the love of your life. Starting each day with a smile on your face knowing you will be waking up to that face and beautiful soul forever . Being a part of someone is bigger than the physical, it's more mental and emotional balance, understanding. Knowing how to handle each other and accepting one another with all the flaws because when love is present it paints imperfection as beauty because deep down what makes us different most times is usually the special parts of us. You push each other to become better individuals for yourself and for each other. I believe if you truly love someone, seeing them reach their full potential should give you greater joy as it makes them able to love y...

  Love- a very short four letter word but it carries so much depth. The one thing that cuts across every race, generation and border whatsoever. Common denominator of this word is pain if you ask around, failure to control it is the reason why it's hard to move on from it. It brings  so much joy and has crazy potential to destroy if mishandled.  Whenever people want to lie they use it because it silences most,its what most of us dream about and everyone has a clear picture of what exactly they want that four letter word to feel like. Crazy how one thing can carry both extremes so lightly, the power to build something really beautiful or burn anything in it's way.  It managed to calm the chaos in my mental through you. If I were to say I miss you  insane it would sound insane because I haven't made as many memories with you just yet but if I tell you the intensity of emotions that flood me everytime I think of you maybe you would understand where I'm coming from....

If your heart could speak out, what would it say about you? Hey guys my name is Vanessa and I'm a crazy free spirited city girl who has been through a lot.  In regards to the question my heart would probably say it's been through the most with me lol but who hasn't been, right? I'm going to be getting in deep and personal with love and emotions and depression and the whole shebang that comes with the lil four letter word. Hope I'll get most of you guys to relate and not feel alone with some of the issues I'll be posting. Promise to keep you entertained 😉 Queen Vee xxx