Love and other drugs

  Emotions stay blinding Binding us with the worst When shit breaks that's when you realise It wasnt a dime it was just a rock in grime. No throne - that's for royalty , just a nigga Tryna boost his ego rolling with a baddie. Perception changes with the tides True colours for long never hide. Smart bitch dumbing it down for a nigga But for how long because her actions are realer Intelligence and feelings never mix One will have you working on your knees. Spending too much time between the sheets Confuses the mind even if he cheats. Gets you seeing imaginary potential Girl you know it'll never be confidential. Not him projecting his bullshit on you Got you apologising for shit you ain't know. Nudity over conversation Forehead kisses erasing the sense from you Forty five minutes over a lifetime Why would you take crumbs over a scone. As you sit and reminisce , it hits you He was never IT, he could never be.

  Perfect fit they say.... Not for all of you but just her Tailored glove for her heart Cold fronts don't front her now Came through unexpected Now staying is expected ...  Gentle soul he is, its those Slight brushes she sees ... Stroking the heart with ease Touching her soul with words Slowly unpacking the tension Replacing the IF with intention Different vibration he brings Changing the shade in which she sees He views her on a pedestal Takes her for the queen she is No time for mediocre shit King treatment when she's around him He takes his time with her Undoing every knot Without knowing what he's doing Happiness laced with stress Never sure if it's best Eyes closed she goes, better him than them. She purges herself of the demons He knows what's left is all he is eyeing Sweetness and innocence in its rawest He could have loved her even at her lowest Reassurance in his eyes, trust in hers If he takes her hand she'll say yes.

    I'm here...present. but it dont count Even if she ain't here , she present All the effort and energy, you dont see Why am I here??? I'm intelligent I ain't no fool, but for you I dumb it down . Header she is, I'm an afterthought Tired I am... but you dont see Supposed to be cool with everything, I have a script ready. I wanna cry But i ain't allowed. Thick skin I have For you, it's never asked if I'm okay. I wanna love you hard, trying for me But for you it ain't no option . Was not born for second to none The ancestors know I'm a starseed I give you countless chances For me you were not born an option. The inner me knows it's a trap Outer me feels like heaven with you I'm never honest with myself The truth is a hard pill to swallow I swallow all of you in, but if it wasnt DNA I wouldn't get nothing from you. I take you in any form I can Miss a chance and its history I hold onto any part of you I ca...

      Falling for the same tricks You get used to the tempo Same words, different lyricist Maybe happiness doesn't exist Is it just for you though??? Seems others over that are way past . Hating my favourite songs now Every line has a memory tag on Forever is an illusion- time keeping never been your thing huh? Got me over analysing all the little things Traces of you linger in my present . Ultimate peace seems unattainable Second place feels safest - Never dealing with the bullshit Is it really???? Or I'm playing myself Could have never imagined A whole queen shrinking her crown . If only the feeling lasted longer Gripping only when we naked Feels like clothing is a mask for you Scares you thinking of anything beyond Continuously letting myself down Dimming my halo for the devil. Your actions repel emotion Why I hold on still - even I wonder Cant fix shit I didn't break Hell I'm broken by trying for you If only you'd see yourself in ...

  Told you exactly how it hurt but it never made a difference I'm always seeking attention and making my problems bigger- that's how you see it Promised to always be there but you're the first to leave when shit comes crashing down You ask me to speak up, I bare my all and you leave me hanging. How the fuck do we even argue about my own feelings ???? Supposed to look right through me but you seem to look past me Told you exactly how I got done and you done did the same shit Telling me I feel way too much because you just dont feel enough I let you see me naked and hell even counted the scars with you You stroke my heart with them words and next minute you flipping I let you get inside my skin , live rent free in my mental Always tell me I'm too deep, you'd rather rent the physical Pretty hurts- now I know , you say them eyes always get you Try to make you see past the lure, the sexiness is laced in them words There's more to me than jus...

  Why am I even falling ???? You said you wouldn't catch me Why am I even calling ??? You keep your phone on silent Speaking on your behalf You let me assume, you never argue I sketch you into the picture You never asked to be a part of it I speak of us in plural But yours is a one man band You let me act a fool Got your homies thinking you're cool The room is hella red Flags everywhere I turn Know im supposed to run But the height makes my tummy burn The moment you say my name I forget the tears that stained my pillow Selling my soul for a one night show Telling myself your love for me will show By the time the curtains close All I see is your back Its now too late to say I should have known. 

  Would it ever be ride or die If I was the only one riding Would I ever be a queen? In somebody else's castle You took me for a ride I thought you were my destination Thought you was really different Guess I had that one coming . We let shit fly, you said bye - I get high and cry I don't know why, you cut deep - I bled out I'm dry . I let shit go on for too long I got stuck in a cycle Let the words get to my head, and the heart paid the price I see your face in all them niggas, guess you all the same .... Everytime we had a turn You took a piece of me with you Always felt so good, never thought I'd hate you for it All the lies and the games Was it ever really worth it ?? You never had to sell dreams Would have gladly bought your silence. That's how deep this was ... But you just wanted to feel how deep I was You painted the perfect picture Words like glue got me right back together Imagined baby names While you baby someone else Safe ...

  The problem is when you're a beautiful soul you always see the good in everyone but not everyone is like you. We see the potential in everything, even the darkest of souls glow so bright in our eyes because they could if they tapped into it but they choose not to - and this is the exact part that easily flies over our heads . We are always picking up shards of glass for other people to put them back together and it's those same pieces that cut us deep and the reason we get cut almost always never sticks around to hand a tissue for your cut or even ask if you're okay . I personally think that the "gut" was specifically created for people like us - who are ready to see beauty in anything and running with it. The gut never gets distracted by smiles and 2 minute goodies because it deals with pure energy and so what you see is what you get. If I'm being honest sometimes I really wish I didnt feel as much maybe I wouldn't be bothered by the slightest o...